I've bought them their first official little backpacks and am going to stuff them liberally with crayons, little notebooks, Barbies, toy cell phones, candy, stickers, etc. We also have a portable dvd player. Beyond that, I'm simply going to pray. And have a drink if necessary (though that could potentially look very bad and I certainly don't want anyone calling Child Protection Services on me). In the past on various occasions I've been able to rely on the kindness of complete strangers. Having twins seems to attract attention anyway, and other moms in particular are usually very helpful/sympathetic. So we'll see. We haven't traveled very much with the girls at all, and when we have the destination has always been New Orleans. It is my hope that this will go well and perhaps I could even take them on my own for a long weekend or two later in the summer...
In other news, I think I've plateaued/hit a wall with Jazzercise. I'm not getting any smaller/losing any weight....which is frustrating because the routines change every 10 weeks for that very reason---to trick your body into thinking you're doing new exercises. Some of my shorts from last summer are too tight---and I was considering that perhaps I've added more bulk to my body (i.e. muscle). My thyroid has also been all over the place. I am trying not to get on the scale as frequently because it makes me sad. I hate focusing on a number, and I am incapable of starving myself. Maybe someday I will look back at this time and wish I hadn't spent it obsessing/being unhappy with my figure. But for now I can't help it. The grass is always greener. Part of it is accepting that I do not have a tiny frame---I am big boned. I am tall. I am not petite. I will never be one of those cute little things. I am me. And I need to learn to be okay with that.
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